Changing Ambitions...

Once upon a time, I was ambitious in my professional career for my own ego's gratification. I wanted recognition, prestige, and glory.

Now, I am ambitious as a means to an end. I want to achieve not for its own sake and not for what it will bring me, but for what it will enable me to bring/do for my kids.

This is both rewarding and scary. Rewarding for the obvious reason that it feels more meaningful to live life for something outside of/greater than yourself.

Scary because the stakes seem higher. Before, the worst that could happen would be a bruised ego; Now, I fear that the vision of what I can do/provide for my kids won't be realized. That's a tougher bruise to heal.